Alternate Lifestyling and stuff

We've grown this little tribe. The tribe took an RV to last weekend's epic party. There was a mishap coming home that will cost the RV owner. A fundraising effort was proposed to employ unity consciousness and take care of them. As a joke, sort of, body-selling was proposed. Someone with experience in that mentioned sugardaddy.com. Someone else with experience in that said a few of their friends "had used SugarDaddy.com to create some new friends and raise their financial influence." I thought that a fascinating way to put it. They then said that if their emotional wounding wasn't around sex, they'd be down, but are only able to to be an informant on this matter.

I've somehow manifested a twist on old fantasies and found myself hanging out with retired strippers and prostitutes. I mean that with a sort of ironic who-cares total acceptance and love, but the connection with stupid old fantasies amuses me.

I still have fantasies, stupid or not, either to gain the experience with more women that I didn't get when I was young and thereby learn enough about myself to be comfortable with who I really am (sexually and otherwise), or to just have sexy times with two or more sexy women at once. No more fantasies about strippers etc. Those fantasies only existed because as a not-very-social married man, women in the business were the only ones theoretically accessible to me. Now I've got this sexually-open community around me and so, in theory, have access to more sexually-open women.

By now, given this access and what we are sometimes seen to do, the sunny one and I surely have a reputation. She says mine is worse. I find that hilarious. Yes, there are a lot of pictures out there with me being all snuggly on cute chix. But snuggly is almost all there ever is. She stays out of pictures but manages to have a better time. Rather a much better time, in my opinion. So it's ironically hilarious that I have the worse reputation. I don't mind, though. Be it smart or not, I've never cared much about my rep. I am who I am and the opinions of people who don't know me better than whatever reputation I might have don't matter. I imagine she feels similarly.

What are we sometimes seen to do? Well, we are well-known as a couple. Most of the women in pictures with me are her. Even so, one of these women who's snuggly only in pictures thought it interesting to see me making out with someone else in the big cuddle pile that had coalesced on the lawn near the lake Sunday afternoon. Two someones, almost, since the lady on my other side was sitting on my hand. Yet though it looks interesting, it feels very innocent to me. Such making out is rare enough and actual sexual activity much rarer still. We are a very sex-positive and protective community, and what looks like nasty fun from the outside is always very carefully held within cocoons of respect and consent and protection of boundaries, and I think most people are actually fairly conservative when it comes down to that. I know I am. I am actually very conservative, with long-held attitudes I still want to release myself from, and for this reason, more than any other, I find the possibility of a reputation for getting it on with lots of women so very hilarious. I am quite chaste, relatively, and the others aren't so crazy either.

Yet it's alternate lifestyling, I guess, whether or not I know what that really means.